The Truth

Just 10 mintues ago, my fiance called to say that I've disappointed him on a number of occasions where I have been "too friendly" to other guys. In his opinion, making conversation with his 2nd cousin about travelling around New Zealand is just overboard. I should stick to conversation with other girls, so he believes. Oh and finding another female attractive, is definitely much worse than getting a massage from a naked female while overseas so he believes. On top of this he believes that I don't value this relationship. Enough of his beliefs. Here are mine (said in a perfectly calm state of mind).

1. I feel more comfortable and happy with my best friend and family than with my fiance on most occasions
2. I fake laugh at my fiance's jokes
3. I find my fiance boring and predictable ....I mean "stable"
4. I hate his "guys are the breadwinners of the family" talk. If you wanna be a man, you gotta look less like a turtle ( Head down, hunched over shoulders with hand on face, is not a manly look) and stop being a mummy's boy and stand on your own two feet (you don't really have to tell your mum everything that goes wrong).
   
5. My fiance holds a grudge like there's no tomorrow, so if he discovers this...I'm DEAD.
   
6. I love my fiance regardless. He's caring towards me most of the time. He tries to keep me happy (hard task so I gotta hand that to him). He makes an effort. He gets stuff done. Romantic when he doesn't try to be. Thoughtful most of the time and most of all patient.
   
7. I still regret not doing the things I wanted to do, like travelling to Peru, learning to surf, learn horseriding, go play paintball, do an extreme sport, and take up kung fu again.
8. I don't want to move to the Eastern suburbs, as posh as it may be. It's not me. It's not home. Perhaps it's tall poppy syndrome on a suburban level, but I like the West.
   
9. I don't enjoy my job anymore. It's so big and busy that I'm losing touch with the people I work with
10. I can move on. I know the world doesn't stop turning just because of a personal crisis of mine, nor will I.

Sayonara once again and good night. Till next time.